[Theo's found his way to their bed for recovery and taken some time to do just that - recuperate lost energy, sleep off the stress and curl against his lover up until this moment now where he's still lounging in bed and she's elsewhere. Getting food, kicking ass, feeding the cat- doesn't matter, what does is that he's finally on his phone again and typing:]
[ It is ominous though, even if he says it's not about them. Something pretty big changed, didn't it? She'd be lying if she said she never thought Theo might wake up and decide he doesn't need her anymore. Or he might find someone closer to what he can do now. It'd only make sense to go want to be with them instead.
i'm going to ask you a kind of unfair question but
if someone told you not to tell me something, would you keep their confidence? even when you know it might be important to me to know?
["Are you a better person than me, who wants to tell you right away?" He thinks she would want to know these things. But is it selfish to think she'd tell him if things were reversed? He'd understand if she wanted to keep someone else's secret, too...]
I don't think i could keep a secret from you mine or someone else's but if there's stuff i can't know anymore then i don't know i wouldn't force you to do something you didn't want to
[ and she's full of shit, because it would just eat her up inside. that isn't healthy, right? people shouldn't have to tell each other anything, and yet she promised. and she told him everything. ]
[ She probably forgets to bring something, and of course the manor makes the walk back to their room feel the longest it's ever been. There's no erasing the look of worry when she enters, dropping the snacks on a table. ]
[He got up onto his feet when she was still on her way back, pacing a little - putting on a silky robe and wondering again and again if he's doing the right thing. August confided in him and here he is, wanting to tell someone else. Half because he feels she deserves to know and half because this helpless feeling in him of wanted to do something, even about the inevitable. Is it worse to inflict her with that, too? Too late, now.]
He told me not to tell you. And he didn't tell me much. But...
He seems to be in this last hurrah, like he's - waiting for something inevitable. Like he knows his death is coming?
[Because Theo doesn't know what really awaits August. He frowns, tensing up.]
I feel - shitty, sharing what he told me? But he helped me get my mark off and... I don't know if it's that or something else that happened here but I just feel like... nothing's ever as concrete as it seems. If I can think about an ending better than the one I expect, maybe I can wish that for other people too. Maybe I can do something about it.
[Foolish, near arrogant thoughts. He is nothing. Can do nothing. Yet... why does he feel like...]
I should've kept you in the dark about it, but - you read me really well. I can't keep secrets from you.
[ It's hard to hear. She feels her muscles turn to stone, her lips tense, reality descending with the weight of something awful enough to be inevitable. She and August spoke of death before, mostly her fear that she might die at the hands of someone she loves, and that that might make them disappear. All the hints he dropped — years ago for him now, just last month for her — are painting a picture colored in blood and the flames he relies on so much.
Cellar nods. It's something she and Theo can think about together, if he wants her to help him. She hopes so. ]
I don't want you to keep secrets from me, Theo. I don't know why he wouldn't tell me, [ Because we are not the friends I thought we were— ] But. Uhm. Thank you.
[ For being who I believed you were. ]
Whatever it is, maybe we can figure something out. And if we can't, then. Then we're here for him.
I think he cares about you and knows you're really determined to do anything to keep the people you love alive.
[Case and point, that deal you made with the devil - no, with death? To keep him alive in a hypothetical. He can't fault her for it, though. He's so aware he would do the same in a heartbeat. He just wants her to know that he gets it, wants her to know what he thinks of her too. Too good for this place. Nevermind too good for him, too.]
I've never really been part of an actual coven before. Sort of on the outskirts? Technically a member, but... I feel like he's part of a coven I'm making here, in a way. You are too, it's not just - not just witches. But... a family.
[ She'd like to know what that means when Theo says it, but she also knows August. That translates to he thinks you'll do something stupid, and it's annoying because it's right. And also why she's not going to stay put. If August remembers her talking about Raíz and gets desperate enough to do something stupid too — she's here.
Swaying a little, Cellar leans up to kiss Theo on the cheek. Something to pacify, to soothe. Maybe to stall, too. ]
I'm really glad you're finally getting the stuff you wanted, Teddie. And — I'm really, really happy I get to see it happen.
[Running from his own shadow, never believing there's a possibility for something good in his future. He met her and the world changed - possibilities arose. It's still such a strange thing, having his confidence grow back. To no longer be afraid of defiance, but incited by the act of it. He wraps his arms around her, and kisses her more soundly.]
[ It helps her smile, it helps her think of something else — of nothing else but them. Sometimes she believes that's all she could ever need. No Raíz, no pact, no wish, whatever that was. Just her Theo. ]
I love you.
[ Squeezing him, closing her eyes. ]
Can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you. [ A grin, tone lighter. ] Can't wait to see what you can do now, too.
[He guides her toward the bed with him - where they can spread out, but more importantly he can coax her to lay with him just for a little bit. He's not tired, not sleepy - but their room is such a comfort to him that no matter what, it feels warmer when they're there together. He plays with her hair, kisses the crown of her head and finds himself chuckling.]
I feel... better, but I don't even know where to start when it comes to refining my magic now. It's like I just got my arm out of a sling it's been in for decades... I want to draw, but what do I do next? Y'know?
[ There's a little laughing as they both drop on the bed, the short-lived bounce giving way to her practically crawling into his embrace. Every touch is perfect. ]
I mean… what was the last thing you thought about doing, but you were like — 'ah damn, if it wasn't for this thing, I totally would've been able to do that'.
I... I don't know. I want to learn from someone, I guess - see what I really can do. I was good at glamors and divination before, so... maybe seeing how far I can go with that now? Not that I really use glamors anymore...
[Shy, almost:]
I feel good in my own skin now, thanks in part to you.
[ That gets him a few more kisses, to his lips, cheek, forehead, all with a soft and playful mwah. Bringing him out of that shyness, hopefully to help him shine a little brighter. ]
There's other cool stuff you can do with it, right? Like if you wanna win a best lookalike competition.
[ Laughing, imagining all the main players of the Balfour estate being shocked at such a thing. Or enamored, who knows. ]
Can't August teach you? And then you can use what you learn to…
[ Her slow shrug translates to reverse uno card help him. ]
[Not only does Theo feel indebted to him, he's shared his secret - he's expecting August to be pissed. But maybe past that, sometime down the road? He'd like to learn from him. But at the same time that feels like admitting he's inexperienced and hopeless to a guy he wants to convince they know how to save...]
Maybe we'll shop around for mentors, then. Any of your other magic friends cuuuute?
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hey bb
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feeling okay?
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but good jello
wheres my wifey gone
imiss her
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want something?
today's cat is a tortie
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i could use a blue gatorade and some chips
i wanna talk about smthn too, when you're back
which i know is ominous to text
but idk, been thinking about it
it's not about us
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[ It is ominous though, even if he says it's not about them. Something pretty big changed, didn't it? She'd be lying if she said she never thought Theo might wake up and decide he doesn't need her anymore. Or he might find someone closer to what he can do now. It'd only make sense to go want to be with them instead.
Wake up, Cellar. ]
what is it about then?
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if someone told you not to tell me something, would you keep their confidence?
even when you know it might be important to me to know?
["Are you a better person than me, who wants to tell you right away?" He thinks she would want to know these things. But is it selfish to think she'd tell him if things were reversed? He'd understand if she wanted to keep someone else's secret, too...]
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I don't think i could keep a secret from you
mine or someone else's
but if there's stuff i can't know anymore then
i don't know
i wouldn't force you to do something you didn't want to
[ and she's full of shit, because it would just eat her up inside. that isn't healthy, right? people shouldn't have to tell each other anything, and yet she promised. and she told him everything. ]
just
tell me if you're okay
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but I don't think August will be
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I don't want our msgs ending up anywhere if something screwy happens
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[ She probably forgets to bring something, and of course the manor makes the walk back to their room feel the longest it's ever been. There's no erasing the look of worry when she enters, dropping the snacks on a table. ]
... hey.
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[He got up onto his feet when she was still on her way back, pacing a little - putting on a silky robe and wondering again and again if he's doing the right thing. August confided in him and here he is, wanting to tell someone else. Half because he feels she deserves to know and half because this helpless feeling in him of wanted to do something, even about the inevitable. Is it worse to inflict her with that, too? Too late, now.]
He told me not to tell you. And he didn't tell me much. But...
[Helpless feelings, helpless feelings...]
I thought stupidly maybe we could do something.
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[ Holding his hand, squeezing softly, she pretends there's anything to smooth out on his robe. ]
Something happened to him back home, didn't it.
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[Because Theo doesn't know what really awaits August. He frowns, tensing up.]
I feel - shitty, sharing what he told me? But he helped me get my mark off and... I don't know if it's that or something else that happened here but I just feel like... nothing's ever as concrete as it seems. If I can think about an ending better than the one I expect, maybe I can wish that for other people too. Maybe I can do something about it.
[Foolish, near arrogant thoughts. He is nothing. Can do nothing. Yet... why does he feel like...]
I should've kept you in the dark about it, but - you read me really well. I can't keep secrets from you.
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Cellar nods. It's something she and Theo can think about together, if he wants her to help him. She hopes so. ]
I don't want you to keep secrets from me, Theo. I don't know why he wouldn't tell me, [ Because we are not the friends I thought we were— ] But. Uhm. Thank you.
[ For being who I believed you were. ]
Whatever it is, maybe we can figure something out. And if we can't, then. Then we're here for him.
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[Case and point, that deal you made with the devil - no, with death? To keep him alive in a hypothetical. He can't fault her for it, though. He's so aware he would do the same in a heartbeat. He just wants her to know that he gets it, wants her to know what he thinks of her too. Too good for this place. Nevermind too good for him, too.]
I've never really been part of an actual coven before. Sort of on the outskirts? Technically a member, but... I feel like he's part of a coven I'm making here, in a way. You are too, it's not just - not just witches. But... a family.
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Swaying a little, Cellar leans up to kiss Theo on the cheek. Something to pacify, to soothe. Maybe to stall, too. ]
I'm really glad you're finally getting the stuff you wanted, Teddie. And — I'm really, really happy I get to see it happen.
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[Running from his own shadow, never believing there's a possibility for something good in his future. He met her and the world changed - possibilities arose. It's still such a strange thing, having his confidence grow back. To no longer be afraid of defiance, but incited by the act of it. He wraps his arms around her, and kisses her more soundly.]
I love you.
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I love you.
[ Squeezing him, closing her eyes. ]
Can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you. [ A grin, tone lighter. ] Can't wait to see what you can do now, too.
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I feel... better, but I don't even know where to start when it comes to refining my magic now. It's like I just got my arm out of a sling it's been in for decades... I want to draw, but what do I do next? Y'know?
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I mean… what was the last thing you thought about doing, but you were like — 'ah damn, if it wasn't for this thing, I totally would've been able to do that'.
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[Shy, almost:]
I feel good in my own skin now, thanks in part to you.
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[ That gets him a few more kisses, to his lips, cheek, forehead, all with a soft and playful mwah. Bringing him out of that shyness, hopefully to help him shine a little brighter. ]
There's other cool stuff you can do with it, right? Like if you wanna win a best lookalike competition.
[ Laughing, imagining all the main players of the Balfour estate being shocked at such a thing. Or enamored, who knows. ]
Can't August teach you? And then you can use what you learn to…
[ Her slow shrug translates to reverse uno card help him. ]
I think I know other people, though.
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[Not only does Theo feel indebted to him, he's shared his secret - he's expecting August to be pissed. But maybe past that, sometime down the road? He'd like to learn from him. But at the same time that feels like admitting he's inexperienced and hopeless to a guy he wants to convince they know how to save...]
Maybe we'll shop around for mentors, then. Any of your other magic friends cuuuute?
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