[He trusts Cellar more than anyone in the world. Believes her to be the most perfect thing to exist in it. Which is why it's so hard to be this vulnerable and ugly in front of her, it just makes him feel unworthy. Apparently he's got a whole complex about being undesirable to the people he desires, a fear rooted just as deeply in his past as his aversion to breath play.
Softly, and speaking more to the whole situation again - murmuring under his breath:]
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[He admits, openly - pausing before adding:]
Ugly cry. It's embarrassing.
[He trusts Cellar more than anyone in the world. Believes her to be the most perfect thing to exist in it. Which is why it's so hard to be this vulnerable and ugly in front of her, it just makes him feel unworthy. Apparently he's got a whole complex about being undesirable to the people he desires, a fear rooted just as deeply in his past as his aversion to breath play.
Softly, and speaking more to the whole situation again - murmuring under his breath:]
God, I'm so embarrassed.
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And I bet your ugly crying is the prettiest anyone's ever seen.
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[Said with such warmth, despite the chilly, sadness that's in his bones.]
I'll crawl home soon.
🎀
[ Pause. It hurts to know he's hurting so much. ]
Can't wait to hug you and kiss you again. Love you, see you soon.