[ Oh, she hates to hear it. She hates that she can't have her arms around him more. ]
That's so weird. I wish he'd communicated more… that isn't fair for you. Are you staying with Iggy?
[ Fidgeting a little with her free hand. If Theo wanted her there he'd say something, but she still wonders. She typically doesn't like that he's out there feeling like that, but she trusts their friend to take care of him. ]
[He trusts Cellar more than anyone in the world. Believes her to be the most perfect thing to exist in it. Which is why it's so hard to be this vulnerable and ugly in front of her, it just makes him feel unworthy. Apparently he's got a whole complex about being undesirable to the people he desires, a fear rooted just as deeply in his past as his aversion to breath play.
Softly, and speaking more to the whole situation again - murmuring under his breath:]
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[Said softly, but he's still not sure.]
's just... I dunno, I thought it was good. Everything was good.
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But the rest... the rest is up to him, and no one can control that but him.
What did he say to you?
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Didn't... didn't even say much. I've never broken up faster in my - my life.
[Sniff.]
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That's so weird. I wish he'd communicated more… that isn't fair for you. Are you staying with Iggy?
[ Fidgeting a little with her free hand. If Theo wanted her there he'd say something, but she still wonders. She typically doesn't like that he's out there feeling like that, but she trusts their friend to take care of him. ]
Tell him to hug you a ton.
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[He admits, openly - pausing before adding:]
Ugly cry. It's embarrassing.
[He trusts Cellar more than anyone in the world. Believes her to be the most perfect thing to exist in it. Which is why it's so hard to be this vulnerable and ugly in front of her, it just makes him feel unworthy. Apparently he's got a whole complex about being undesirable to the people he desires, a fear rooted just as deeply in his past as his aversion to breath play.
Softly, and speaking more to the whole situation again - murmuring under his breath:]
God, I'm so embarrassed.
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And I bet your ugly crying is the prettiest anyone's ever seen.
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[Said with such warmth, despite the chilly, sadness that's in his bones.]
I'll crawl home soon.
🎀
[ Pause. It hurts to know he's hurting so much. ]
Can't wait to hug you and kiss you again. Love you, see you soon.