yeah she just she has these powers to change the world and people she makes our families forget about us so they don't wonder what happened or whatever for convenience, i guess my parents don't call me by my other name anymore either i'm cellar to them too
that sounds nice i never had any siblings well, not until last month i guess
I'm not sure anyone does. It's as if we've lived whole other lives.
Ah, we had what were called daguerreotypes, and yes they were quite dear. I did have one of him but I did not take it with me on the expedition. They are rather fragile.
i guess just don't really know how to do it for my actual life either it's like this place is a shiny loud distraction and then it hits me with the reminder of everything i left behind i try not to bring it up because i don't wanna upset anyone or be boring which is what i'm doing now sorry
maybe you can ask the library to have it back? i heard it gives people their stuff sometimes
Cellar my dear, please do not apologise. While I am hardly well versed in emotional matters, I do believe that talking about them can be a tonic all its own for the mind. You are not boring me. I would hear more.
Perhaps. Part of me wishes to have nothing from my previous life.
[ Wow, okay. That shouldn't choke her up like it does. Logically thinking, Cellar knows she has Theo, Iggy, the guys from home — and yet almost all of them are on that shelf where her vulnerability is too much and too bothersome. Their problems are worse than hers. They're not crying because they can't go see mom and dad, they didn't overreact over the prospect of losing a brother that never was. That's still so embarrassing, by the way. ]
if you want us to be connected i won't say no you're really sweet, harry not that i wouldn't trust teddie's choices but i can see why he likes you so much :)
maybe [ Maybe nothing, Cellar. If he doesn't want to think about it, that's it. She doesn't know how she'd react if she was in a similar situation. Would she be even more homesick, knowing there would be no way to ever see home again? ] is there anything you'd ask for then?
I truly do wish to help, if I may. I once told someone close to me that misery knows no logic, that all of our pain is valid because we experience it regardless.
Oh, goodness. I don't know. I had very little with me, at the end. Much of your sentimentality gets stripped away in dire circumstances. Perhaps my journal. I did keep that up until the end.
that sounds about right sometimes i'll be sad and then i'll stop and it's like 'wow, what the fuck was that about?' see: the way i talked to you about devon not the most eloquent way to put it but yeah i guess i just come from a place where nobody really does that you bottle it up or you get told to shut up or whatever i love my mentor but he doesn't know what to do with himself when he sees someone crying
[ 'Someone'. It's only Cellar. She's still pretty new to the Blood Pact, so she's got time to lose all that emotion. ]
you wanna go get that sometime then? i can go with you
it's probably not that bad? i haven't asked for anything but i know people who did you just have to be nice to it when you make your request which you obviously have no trouble doing :) maybe i can ask for something too so we'll do it together
yeah it's a ton of work it's got to feel magical though being there and getting those images
oh it's like this really goofy toy a huge long spring that you do tricks with i used to throw them down stairs because they'd stretch and re-form so it was like they were walking down on their own tiny cellar was easily entertained
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Oh, well enough. My brother and I were close when we were young and we stayed friendly. But I don't know that they'd recognise me now.
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she has these powers to change the world and people
she makes our families forget about us so they don't wonder what happened or whatever
for convenience, i guess
my parents don't call me by my other name anymore either
i'm cellar to them too
that sounds nice
i never had any siblings
well, not until last month i guess
when did you last see them?
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Perhaps this place felt you deserved an annoying younger brother. (I jest.)
I saw my brother about a month before I left London for the Arctic.
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i think i miss them more now that i
she had a family
i don't know
it's weird
don't really know how to process this kind of stuff
did you take a photo together? before you left?
i guess they must've been pretty expensive back then huh
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Ah, we had what were called daguerreotypes, and yes they were quite dear. I did have one of him but I did not take it with me on the expedition. They are rather fragile.
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just don't really know how to do it for my actual life either
it's like this place is a shiny loud distraction and then it hits me with the reminder of everything i left behind
i try not to bring it up because i don't wanna upset anyone
or be boring
which is what i'm doing now
sorry
maybe you can ask the library to have it back?
i heard it gives people their stuff sometimes
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Perhaps. Part of me wishes to have nothing from my previous life.
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you don't even know me that well and i'm emotionally dumping on you
i feel bad
[ It's probably Theo's place to do that with Goodsir, not hers. ]
why not?
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But more importantly, you are a lovely young lady who perhaps is in need of a friendly ear. I am happy to provide.
Unlike some, I can never return home. In a way it is easier to not think about it.
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if you want us to be connected
i won't say no
you're really sweet, harry
not that i wouldn't trust teddie's choices but i can see why he likes you so much :)
maybe [ Maybe nothing, Cellar. If he doesn't want to think about it, that's it. She doesn't know how she'd react if she was in a similar situation. Would she be even more homesick, knowing there would be no way to ever see home again? ] is there anything you'd ask for then?
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I truly do wish to help, if I may. I once told someone close to me that misery knows no logic, that all of our pain is valid because we experience it regardless.
Oh, goodness. I don't know. I had very little with me, at the end. Much of your sentimentality gets stripped away in dire circumstances. Perhaps my journal. I did keep that up until the end.
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sometimes i'll be sad and then i'll stop and it's like
'wow, what the fuck was that about?'
see: the way i talked to you about devon
not the most eloquent way to put it but yeah
i guess i just come from a place where nobody really does that
you bottle it up or you get told to shut up or whatever
i love my mentor but he doesn't know what to do with himself when he sees someone crying
[ 'Someone'. It's only Cellar. She's still pretty new to the Blood Pact, so she's got time to lose all that emotion. ]
you wanna go get that sometime then?
i can go with you
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You were truly not that bad.
Would you? I admit the library's supernatural aspects intimidate me.
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[ That was pretty funny, sir-'sir. ]
it's probably not that bad? i haven't asked for anything but i know people who did
you just have to be nice to it when you make your request
which you obviously have no trouble doing :)
maybe i can ask for something too so we'll do it together
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Is there something you desire?
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you have so much to catch up on too
you'll have to show me your favorite movies
oh uh
i'm not sure?
i'd have to think about it
if all else fails i'll just ask for something silly
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Oh, there is a series! It is called The Blue Planet, have you heard of it? It is ever so wonderful.
What qualifies as silly?
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i could definitely rewatch that sometime
i don't know like
a unicorn plushie
a rainbow slinky
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What is a slinky?
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it's got to feel magical though
being there and getting those images
oh it's like this really goofy toy
a huge long spring that you do tricks with
i used to throw them down stairs because they'd stretch and re-form so it was like they were walking down on their own
tiny cellar was easily entertained
[ Like most kids. ]
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That sounds delightful!
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why was she mean to him ]
it's decided then
we're having a blue planet rewatch and i'm getting you a slinky
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Oh, you'll spoil me.
If you wish a chaperone I'll not be offended. For decorum's sake.
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You are a young lady.
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